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Today I had a massive panic attack because I needed to go out and I could find the only pair of jeans that still fit me. The sad thing is, yesterday I was so proud of the weight that I've lost since the begining of the year and my BMI had gone from just being slightly overweight to an average weight.
I hate the fact when you tell someone that your busy when you really are not but yet you tend to do something else and then you feel bad about it so you try and let them out of your head for awhile.
I confess that I have said a few things to poeple that may or may have upset me. I have finding it difficult to forgive some people from the past that have intentionally hurt me i have my old boyfriends mother bad mouthing me when ever she can or sees me because she thinks she can get me mad. I walk away. I have people that make me so angry and say things and do things that I know that is hurting my parents and I see right through them and they sit there and laugh at things because they can but yet they are not noticing what they do or say. I am hearing things through my parents and people think that I do not have a voice, a say, or do. People need to just let things go and i am learning little by little that what has happened in the past is the past and to forget an forgive and i am . I am madly truly in love with dan and he knows it i told him but i no know that we will talk again and its going to move to fast for us this time gut feeling