It makes me sad but BPD is what it is
I CAN'T ever depend on you. It would be downright silly to have any expectation that I could. You're broken and you always will be. It's something that can't be fixed. You can't be fixed anymore than someone who is born retarded. You wouldn't depend on a r***** to handle serious tasks, would you? No. So I have to remember that even as close as we are, you are still prone to being hurtful because you are broken. And always will be. It's never going to go away. It would be like getting mad at a person who was born without nerve endings for not 'feeling'. The capacity isn't there. It just isn't there.