I feel as if I'm a deviant, and while
I feel as if I'm a deviant, and while I'm trying to live a normal life and stay on the straight and narrow my mind keeps drifting into these really, really evil thoughts. I have anxiety attacks over them, because I feel as if I can't stop them. I feel filled with guilt over the things I've done when I was younger and I feel now, I'm married and very, very happy, that I will repeat my destructive youth and lose everything I have. I am a different person now, but for some reason my past keeps haunting me.