I'm in love with someone who lives all the way in Sweden. She doesn't even know me though because I know her through youtube.
I don't, like, stalk her. I don't watch her videos repeatedly or any other kinky stalker crap a lot of people who are confessing seem to do.
I just love who she is. That's all. I don't have some delusion that she'd love me back is she met me.
She recently got a girlfriend, though. Of course, I'm happy for them. But I can't change how I feel.
It's hard finding possible girls who would be interested in me in my group. I don't date my friends. And even thought our count of gay male friends is very high, the count of gay females around us is very low. :/
But, god, every time I think about her, I feel happier. I feel like if she at least knew who I was it would make my day. But I'm just the occasional youtube or dA comment, the usual 'like' or 'fav' contributor.
I do love her, I know I do.
I don't know how I can stop feeling this way. It's not creepy, but it's like a high school crush. I just wish I could get over her.