Would you leave your family for someone with a long sexual history?
I have been in a relationship with a married woman (a coworker) for over 5 months now. I am married too and we both have children of our own. I really thought we had something good going, not just an adventure. I truly feel I'm in love and I can feel she is too.
About three months ago she wanted me to tell her about my sexual past, but I don't really like talking about that so I reluctantly told her very little and without any details. It took me one minute to say what I had to say. She asked me if I wanted to know about hers and even though I really didn't, I said yes. I should've known better. She then went on and on for about 20 minutes sharing all kinds of details about her intimate past. She told me who they were (I didn't know any of them) and even some of the things she did, though not directly. For instance, she said she didn't like the taste of s****, so I could tell that at least one of them e********* in her mouth. She also said she could've gotten pregnant, which means at least one of them came inside her without a condom. She also mentioned that when she tried a*** it hurt. At some point I was so shocked I lost count, but I remember there were either seven or eight guys in a relatively short period of time (about three years). She said she even kept a list with the nationality of each one of them which to me sounded like a freaking collection.
I definitively didn't expect that. She is so quiet, serious, and formal you would never guess it. I was very disappointed because she was all giggly about the whole thing, like she enjoyed remembering the details. To me s** is not a simple thing. I respect women very much so I never had s** unless I truly felt I was in a serious relation. Listening to her gave me the impression that she was having s** (even unprotected s**) just for the fun of it.
I had never been unfaithful. She says she hadn't either but only because she got caught by her husband when she agreed to go out on a date with one of her ex-boyfriends who is also married now. I didn't know any of this when we started going out.
I don't know what to do. I love her and she says she loves me. She knows I was deeply sadden by her telling me about her past and she says she's sorry she told me. She says she would've been happy for ever if she had met me when she was younger. I can't help thinking about what I know of her now. Maybe I'm not being fair but I sometimes fear that sooner or later she'll end up having s** with someone else in the future. I try to fight the thought but I sometimes think of her as a w**** when I picture her with all those guys, some of which came inside her mouth and v***** (maybe even her a***, who knows). I haven't even done that to her because I care for her.
Most of the time I'm happy with her. But I'm not sure if I should leave everything I have for her. I probably would've been absolutely sure if I didn't know all that. *sigh*