I can't hold this in anymore.
I am in love with my best friend. He's funny, he's cute and nerdy, he's REALLY smart...he is everything any girl would want in a guy. And...he has feelings for me too.
But...I'm in a relationship. And my boyfriend is his best friend as well. It's always been the three of us. My boyfriend has always been jealous of how close me and my best friend are...because they've been growing apart.
My best friend is always there for me. He tells me I'm beautiful every day, and that all he wants is for me to be happy.
I love my boyfriend. But, he doesn't treat me well. He's always yelling at me or putting me down or insulting me. Then the next day, he apologizes, and is the sweetest guy in the world.
Now I know everyone's first reaction is going to be, "WHAT THE H*** ARE YOU DOING. GO AFTER YOUR BEST FRIEND."
But...I love my boyfriend to the point where I don't want to lose him.
But I can't keep hurting my best friend.
But I don't want to hurt my boyfriend.
But I hate how he treats me.
But I don't want to look like a b****. I mean, come on, dating your boyfriend's best friend? That's got to be one of the bitchiest thongs you can do.
But...I want to be happy. I just don't know what will make me happy...