I made a lot of mistakes in my life
I was raped by my boyfriend when I was 18 years old. Despite the opposition of my parents when I was 16 years old, I chose this guy to be my boyfriend. he turned out to be a rapist. Since sthen, I have been traumatized but I didn't tell my parents about it.
I broke up with him after he raped me and I tried to move on 2 years later by having another boyfriend.I left the country and we had a long distance relationship.
I slept with my 2nd cousin, I slept with other people while I was away. I am so embarassed because my parents and siblings don't know all that about me. They always think I m a good girl.
My boyfriend and I broke up when we saw each other after 3 years. I m still single now and I want to have someone that could love for who I am. Sometimes I m afraid to tell what happened to me because I think I will not be loved if I do that.
I had some non committed relationships but now I need something serious. I don't know what to do now because I feel like I made too many mistakes in my life. That's the first time I had to tell my whole story. I can say so far I ve slept with 7 guys and I m so ashamed of it because as a christian, I should have known better.Please, tell me something that can make me feel better about myself. I regret all that I did.