Friends with benefits?

We dated three years ago for almost 2 years, and I decided to end things with you. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do, but I felt it was best. I dropped off your stuff, and blocked all your calls. I know I put you through h***. We became friends again 4 months later and I really thought that was it. Then you suddenly met someone else and dated her for 7 months. I never, ever moved on. I missed you every day. I didn't date anyone else. We ran into eachother after things ended with her, and a few months later we were fooling around. It's been about a year and a half of friendship and being friends-with-benefits. No one knows. Our friends just think we are abnormally close. I love you, and I think you love me too. We're both scared. I'm so scared that you'll leave me any minute. When we were dating I was never insecure, but because we're both technically "single," I get insanely jealous and I hate it. I can't act like a child- I'm 22 years old! You want me to lose weight- I KNOW I need to. (I'm not one of those skinny girls that says she's fat but really isn't). I'm unhealthy. You make it seem like if I lost weight then our problems would be solved. But what if I lose weight and you realize that it wasn't the fat you disliked. What if you actually don't like ME. And who I am? I know it's stupid. I know that no matter what, being healthy is a win-win-win-win situation. I'm just a chicken. I love you. I want to be with you. I don't understand what's holding me back.

Jan 9, 2011

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  • If losing weight is what this dude wants you to do, then lose the weight of this pathetic relationship. Move on now. He will never love you, even if you lose your way into a super model. Plus, if you do lose the weight it won't be long before you realize you're too good for his superficial ass. Haven't you wasted enough time on this goober?

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