I hate myself.
I'm fifteen. i might be pregnant.
i'm not on birth control, and i didn't even want to have s**, not entirely anyways. he told me that once he "broke my cherry" that he'd put the condom on. we didn't even get that far, it hurt too much.
but now i'm period is missed by just three days now. i have so many symptoms of pregnancy and i hate it.
i can't even tell my best friend. she told me that if i were to ever get pregnant that she would never talk to me again. which i don't doubt, seeing as how she lives hundreds of miles away. i don't want her to know, but if i do end up pregnant, i obviously can't keep that from her.
but there's always abortion.
i need so much help, it hurts. i hate the boy that did this to me, even though i might not even be impregnated. but god, i feel like a huge w****.
so i cut as much as i can without my dad noticing. maybe i'll finally die and i won't have to worry about a baby or my best friend or the boy ever again. please, someone help me.