This Overwhelming Sadness
Gahh, this is so frustrating. More because I don't even know how to sum up these feelings. Also because I know that thirteen year olds aren't supposed to feel this way. I just do and it bothers me so much. Whenever I'm alone, and sometimes when I'm with people I have such depressing thoughts. Bad memories about things I've done wrong, ways I've hurt people. These thoughts make me so, unimaginably sad. I feel so lonely. And I can't talk to anyone about it, people just view me as happy, lively, and outgoing. I have a constant fear that no one's ever really gonna understand me. Even as I'm posting here I know people are probably just going to think I'm a stupid, angst-y teenager. I always hope that I'll be able to communicate to people the way I feel well enough. But I know I'll never be able to because I don't try. I know none of this probably made any sense. I just had to get it off my chest.