Everytime i look in the mirror i want to cry. I will be going about fine and then i will catch a glimpse of myself and just sink so low i think ill never be able to get out. I am only 20 and weigh 360lbs. And i cannot stop eating. i eat until im full and then get bored and eat again. i get so full i have to vomit. It like i dont even realize how big im getting until i look in the mirror and hits like a punch in the stomach. i hate myself and everything in life. I just wish i had someone to help me. but its like even though im so big, im still invisible. there is always someone more hurt, more depressed, louder, quieter that i get passed right by. dismissed and forgotten. i dont know what to do. i really wish i would just die in my sleep, then i wouldnt have to face the morning.