I can't shake it.
I think I'm depressed. I hate sounding like I'm that person who feels sad and not good enough for anyone and brings the mood down, but I think I am.
I've lost all my friends, and I have my fiance (I know I love him, he makes me happy) but he can't always save me.
I also am always thinking about drugs. It's constantly on my mind how I want to escape reality. I completely keep this to myself, I've only told one person in my distant family. I really have no one to talk to except my family, and I feel like they won't take it seriously like I do.
I need help, or a friend or something. I need to be saved.