Why is Perfection Unobtainable?
I am a 16 year old girl.
I am a Christain.
I am in all honors classes.
I am a junior taking college algebra.
I only have one B in History of the Americas.
In all my other classes I have an A.
I have Rhuematiod Arthritis.
I have anxiety problems.
Many boys like me.
I do not believe any of them.
I have trust problems.
I was sexually harrased when I was 11.
I had a body image disorder for 3yrs now.
I have starved myself a couple of times.
I obsess over my body.
Thin = Beauty
I am 5'7.
I am 117pds.
I am fat.
But only I see this.
I am a white, middle class girl, I am an perfectionist and overachiever.[I am another statistic to eating disorders].
I seek approval of others.
I want to be liked by all.
I am in love with a boy who will never love me.
I blame myself for this because I can not seem to stop having small crushes on other boys.
No he does not know I like him.
I go to his facebook to look at his pictures and listen to love songs everyday.
I feel that I love him but am not good enough.
I wish I would stop crushing on other guys while liking him though.
I need perfect grades, I need to be told my worth.
Even though I do not accept compliments.
I told my teacher, the school nurse, and two friends about how I eat unhealthly.
I thought it would help.
It does sometimes.
But then there are the moments when I lose control of things in life and the only thing left to control is how much food I take in.
If you are a girl reading this.
You are beautiful
Dont you ever forget it
Dont listen to others
You will make great things
You will help many and make many people smile
If you can be strong for me and overcome or avoid an eating disorder or the other things I have listed I know I can find the strength to one day be happy again. God loves you and he finds you beautiful <3