Sick of Hurting
That you say you miss me and think about me all the time, but you are only saying it because you "don't want to hurt me".
Well you should have hurt me a year ago, and then left me alone instead of calling me or emailing me. When it was over so long ago, now I have lost something I can never get back and you have one on the way.
And a month ago, all I wanted to finish this, I just wanted 5min of your time, that's all and you still had to throw her up in my face again. About how stressed you were because of her.
And then in the email the next day you did it again.
Sadly what I really wanted to say was, now you have a small experience of what I had to go through, and you got to keep yours I did not.
You said to me you weren't going to throw away 10 years, how you wished none of this had happened, how you only kept going because you didn't want to hurt me. I am just sick to death of all your crap, I really am. And because I promised you I would never say anything, I have to live with the guilty and the wondering if the reason I lost the one thing that I wanted in the whole world was because of all the stress with you. You are a selfish man and you are right about one thing you once said to me, people are horrible, and you are one of them.