I feel so alone.
I don't have anyone to talk to. I have so many things to say about topics in which I'm interested, but none of my friends seem to care about the same things I do. They don't like to analyze things the way I do. They just kind of like to sit and enjoy, which I think is okay, but it's not engaging to me in the least.
I have a best friend. I pour my heart out to him sometimes. But I always feel as he is completely uninterested in the conversation and wishes I could move on to something else. It breaks my heart. It happened today and I just ended up telling him that if I bored him, he should just tell me. He finally owned up to it and I assured him that I would talk to someone else on the subject to keep him from having to hear about it.
But I don't have anyone else. I'm an adult. No one ever taught you how to make friends aside from being in the same home room with them or working in the same field as a person. I work in the same field as my friends. That's why they're my "friends." But - for all intents and purposes, I feel alone. I feel like crying. I wish I could find someone who intellectually challenges me and wants to debate me on topics well into the night. That's what I want. That's what I need. Until then, I guess I'm alone, right?