It's taken me a long time to come to terms with...

Me too

.. Another clear symptom of inherent ** Envy. It's a shame that you were born with a receptive cavity for a ** rather than the absolute, undeniable superiority that a man's phallus or genitalia indicates!! Conclusively & fortunately, this places you in a subordinate role for your existence in a Man's world. Welcome.

I lost my right hand in a childhood accident that left me with a smooth stump where my wrist should be. Over the years I've dated several woman who had a fetish for my stump, each wanting me to use it to ** them. It always starts fun, the ** is good, bit eventually reality sets in that you can't build a lasting, healthy relationship around a fetish.

Imagine a ** male patient comes in and you amputate both legs

Very interesting, I am a doctor, and I have had similar incidences of turn ons for someone I shouldnt... did u ever do anything about it?