Religion is a big part of my life. I fear God, and know deep down in my heart that He is my creator. My religion does not permit s** before marriage, and I respect and abide by that rule. I really want to please God and receive all the bounties he has to offer. However, over the past couple of years, pleasing God has been very difficult. I've found myself addicted to masturbation and p***. I learned and practiced masturbation in middle school, when i thought it was just a normal thing for all males to do. When i later learned it was a sin in grade 9, i tried my best to stop. But ive continuously fell for Satan's whispers and indulged in this shameful activity. I've been fighting this addiction for over 4 years, and i am glad to say that i m********* far less than i did before. However i dont want to do it all. The times when i give in to the urge, i have thoughts that "God is always watching" and i tell myself to not give in, but i still end up committing this sin. I hate myself for doing this and disobeying God the way i am. I mean its such a simple thought: DONT M*********. but i'm having so much trouble in actually stopping. i dont know whats wrong with me. I feel like actually admitting that i have an addiction to masturbation may help me be cured from this disease. I really dont want to displease God, i truly dont. But i feel so angry and upset that i do. and that watching p*** and masturbating has control over my devotion to Him. Please pray for me to never indulge in this sin again.