My life is a mess...

I am a 16 year old girl and sometimes, when I look in the mirror, I hate myself. Not because I'm ugly or anything, I just can't believe that I've become this kind of person.
I smoke and drink regularly, at least a few times a day. I only go to school at most 2 times a week. I have 17+ tattoos and 24 piercings. I lost my virginity at 13 and have slept with boys for money a few times. I have a fake ID that I use to get into clubs and 21+ events (if I put some make up on, I can fake it). I have been arrested a few times and given too many warnings.
I hate the fact that I'm like this because it gives my parents so much stress and I know they don't deserve it. My little brother has been influenced by me and I'm so afraid that he'll become like me. I don't want this for him anymore than I do for myself. I seem ok on the outside but all I really want is to go back before I became like this... I want to stop but everytime I try, it seems like I can't. This is my life and I don't know how to fix it.... I hate it, I hate it so much.

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  • Ok wow! If you truly hate who you have become,you would change it. It's gonna be terribly hard, but the things we want most in life are always hard to achieve. Don't stress take baby steps... like try going to school, i dont know.. 5 TIMES A WEEK! Seriously your education will most likely determine how far you go in this world. Change for yourself and your family, try thinking of all the positive outcomes. I am no angel either. I am 18 and about to graduate from high school. I love smoking pot and drinking because its fun to me. I enjoy doing that stuff and see nothing wrong with it as long as it does not affect my life in a negative way. It doesnt make me a bad person, i mean im still living a wonderful life that God as blessed me with. You are obviously unhappy with yourself, and the only way to reach some sort of happiness is to change or lean to love yourself. Best of luck to you! :D

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