My life is a mess...
I am a 16 year old girl and sometimes, when I look in the mirror, I hate myself. Not because I'm ugly or anything, I just can't believe that I've become this kind of person.
I smoke and drink regularly, at least a few times a day. I only go to school at most 2 times a week. I have 17+ tattoos and 24 piercings. I lost my virginity at 13 and have slept with boys for money a few times. I have a fake ID that I use to get into clubs and 21+ events (if I put some make up on, I can fake it). I have been arrested a few times and given too many warnings.
I hate the fact that I'm like this because it gives my parents so much stress and I know they don't deserve it. My little brother has been influenced by me and I'm so afraid that he'll become like me. I don't want this for him anymore than I do for myself. I seem ok on the outside but all I really want is to go back before I became like this... I want to stop but everytime I try, it seems like I can't. This is my life and I don't know how to fix it.... I hate it, I hate it so much.