I wish that she'd see this.
There's a girl that I love. It's been 2 years since I've seen her. The last time I saw her was on my birthday. She made me a birthday card and on it she wrote that she hoped it would be my best birthday ever. It was my best ever and my worst ever. It was my best ever because I was with her. It was my worst ever because it was the last time I would ever see her. I knew her for 2 years. We texted each other a lot but we also worked together. We were just friends and that's all but I seriously couldn't handle it. I loved her and I wanted her to feel the same. We would say that we loved each other all the time..that only made things worse. When I said I love you.. I meant, I'm in love with you. When she said it, it meant, I like you. She was and still is the most beautiful girl in the world to me. One day we were talking and she told me that she had a boyfriend. I acted like It was okay..It wasn't. I acted like a real j*** to her when she tried to talk to me about him. I'll always regret the way I acted but I couldn't help it, I just, love her so much and now I don't have a chance. After that our friendship was weird but we were still friends and I still got to see her. Anyway, on my 17th birthday she saw me for the last time. She didn't say goodbye. She just stopped talking to me. I tried talking to her on myspace and facebook but eventually she just shut me out completely. I've always understood that she didn't feel that way about me but It just hurts, a lot.