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Help me with my regret
When I was twelve I basically did sexual things to my brother in his sleep one night. Then for the next few months I had other sexually disturbed thoughts. I'm now 14 and for the last 20 months I've had strong regret of these times, particularly that one night even thought it lasted 5 minutes, if that. Even though the regret isn't as bad now it's still unbearable, it used to deprive me of sleep and I'd even considered suicide. I don't want people to abuse me, I just want advice please, thank you. Also he has no idea about this and for his and my benefit I don't think I should tell him.
Thanks again. And yes telling it in this forum has helped, but I still haven't forgave myself and I think just discussing it with a therapist might achieve this.
Thanks also for your answers they made me feel a bit better.
Also who do I contact? My local GP, another section of the NHS or a completely separate company?
I had to look up what NHS stood for - got it. :-). I think a good first step could be to speak with your GP, they can at least refer you to a therapist that works with children and young adults. You most likely have to tell your parents that you would like to see a therapist. But you don't have to share why with them. I'm not really familiar with how the UK charges for healthcare, but your parents will obviously have to see/pay a bill and also take you to your appointments.
Since I don't know where you are, I found these sites (I'm sure there are more) http://www.childrenstherapies.co.uk (this site says you would not need referral from GP)
http://www.achippp.org.uk/directory
It's awesome that you're so proactive about seeking help. Good for you!