Guilt

I feel the same way sometimes after me and my parents get in big fights

I wish I would end up in a coma from my epilepsy or high blood pressure. Knowing I was going to ask for help for something she didn't even answer the phone. I then started getting emails that I needed to deal with my drug problem.

I need to start one first

I know how you feel, but no matter what, this too shall pass. It doesn't always feel like it, but I promise with all my heart that it will. I don't, and never will know your story, any history or the complete nature of the situation...but there are resources available to you, non-judgmental, anonymous and helpful if you should ever need them.

1-800-273-TALK(8255)

http://suicidehotlines.com/international.html

Well How are they treating you?