I think about committing suicide daily. I sit for hours a night with a pistol under my jaw hoping to be able to pull the trigger. I have a beautiful 3 year old daughter I can not support because the career I chose fell out. I'm stuck and I don't know what to do. I've pulled the trigger once before and nothing happened. Things got better for a couple years. I often think about using drugs again to kill the pain but I'm too broke to afford drugs. Suicide is the only way to stop it!