There's got to be more to life than this right? More to life than working just to get by.. Barely having time with my kids... Feeling like I'm not cherished or loved by him like I need and feel like I deserve.. He doesn't look at me the way I need him to. He isn't there fore with comfort when I need it the very most.. And all I can think when I wonder if he loves me and wants to be with me forever is his adulterating heart because of the things he's done in the past.. He isn't committing to me the way I need him to.. When or will that ever happen.,, he doesn't understand.
My 14 year old brother took his own life two weeks ago because of bullying.. and now, I just can't, I just can't look at life the same.. Why the h*** are we here only to suffer the way we do? To do the same things over and over? To feel pain unimaginable, unbearable. My soul feels weak.. My heart is broken and dragging.theres no one to talk to as I feel my semblance of happiness fade. My troubles are a burden to others...,.... I just want to feel again