I've never been in any relationship. I don't even have any friends at the moment. Pretty much, my life has been full of family issues and loneliness. When I tell people that I don't want to be alone, they act like I'm weak or a wimp or something. But look at them, They have been in relationships. They have girlfriends and people to just hang out with. I don't even have that. People act like it's my fault but the truth is that people just don't want to be my friend, let alone girlfriend. People are attracted to confidence and because that's true I guess I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life because I'm not confident at all. It's not like I chose to be this way. People just don't see me. It's not that they don't like me. It's that they don't care either way. They couldn't care less whether or not I have people to talk to. They couldn't care less whether or not I have a girlfriend or have people that love me. There are two ways that people get confidence. One way is to be in denial of who they really are. The other way is to get confidence from other people. I don't want to be in denial and at the same time I haven't had anyone to give me confidence. It's kind of hard to be confident when you've never had a girlfriend.