I'm a Crush-aholic
I've been married for 15 years, and I've had all these crushes on guys over the years. I haven't done anything about it but I do lay in bed at night dreaming about the guy I'm crushing on.
Recently I had feelings for someone in their 20s (I'm in my late 30s) and a friend told me that when you get to be about 35-40, that your taste in men gets "younger and younger." But I felt like I was robbing the cradle, and we're not hanging out anymore anyway. He's pretty immature and we have nothing in common.
I just don't know why I do this over and over again; am I really that dissatisfied in my marriage? My husband is loving, attentive, and the most selfless person I know.
I'm thinking it's because of our lack of s** life, but I'm not sure. Maybe I was just wired to be a little crush-aholic.
Whenever I have crushes on guys, it always turns out badly; usually we end up hating each other. The guy will want to be more than friends and I don't or we just get sick and tired of each other. It's not a good scenario. So why do I keep doing it?
I've met this married guy--actually we've known each other about a year, but now we're becoming best buds---and I do NOT want to f*** up this friendship. I think we could really be friends for a long time; doing stuff together, hanging out, etc. We have a lot in common and we're the same age. I'm just crossing my fingers that I don't get swept off my feet by his sweet personality and totally destroy any chance of a good friendship.
I am keeping my fingers crossed!