Alcohol: Making innocent girls skanks since the founding of fermentation.
I never act like a w****. I've been drinking since I was 12 and never before have I ever acted as horrible as I did last Monday. I met a guy at a bar and I really enjoyed talking to him, we had a lot in common. A few drinks later we were leaving the bar and decided to tell him to come with me. I'm not sure what his intentions were. We went to my friend's apartment and talked some more. He kept saying he should go home, then mentioned his girlfriend offhandedly. I addressed the subject and he said "Well, kinda girlfriend". I don't act like a w****, but I really dug this guy and for some reason (I'm guessing it was the 5 hours at the bar and nothing but liquor) I decided to make a move. I don't even know how it happened. I gave him head and he was into it, but I remember him saying he can't, which makes me feel even worse. He said I was cute and that he wanted to, so we took it further, he started to finger me and begrudgingly strapped on a condom, and by some grace of God or whatever you so choose, my friend's roommate was locked out and needed to be let in. This stopped everything.
We let the roommate in, we all talked for a bit and I don't even know what happened but he left, he did say goodbye. Am I a terrible person?
Side note: I've met him once before, and actually went to his house (he lives with his parents) so I know he's not married. He's a nice guy but I feel terrible.
Any advice for someone who's had their first one night stand?