Love or not?
I'm a thirteen year old girl. With my first boyfriend. We've been together for four months now. I told him that I love him and he said the same to me. I personally believe I am more mature than other girls my age but if u disagree with me, I understand. My boyfriend, he's my first kiss, my first boyfriend, first hand holder,etc. the furthest I have gone, and will go, is a kiss. He is very sweet and understanding. Hes always there to help me when I'm feeling down. He so hilarious and he's the class clown. He's very smart and like me, taking a higher level math class. We have all of our classes together which is really weird cuz usually that doesn't happen in middle school. He tells me he loves me more than I love him, but I tell him that's not true. And he asks why I think that, but I just shrug and tell him I don't know....but the thing is, I do know. About a month and a half ago, he told me that he also liked another girl. He said he was very sorry and he told me he felt very bad about it and I believed him. And I told him to just get some space and think about what he wants and tell me later. Meanwhile, I was telling myself I wasn't going to be a stupid little girl and cry over a boy but the next minute, I find myself not able focus on anything but him and crying. Now, a month after that happened, he tells me he loves me so much and will never break up with him and I believe him. But every time I see him talking to that girl, I feel so hurt remembering what it felt like when he told me. But that girl is like one of the most popular girls in our class, and she's so pretty, she's skinnier than me, she's smarter than me, everything about her is perfect. And honestly, I think she likes me boyfriend. And I can't help but wonder why he's still with me. Is he just settling for me? Or does he really not think other as anything more than a good friend and he really cares for me? Talking to my family about this is out of the question because they are against middle school dating. Talking to my friends about it is put of the question because most of them hate him. So, that leave me to anonymously post my problems on the Internet for all to see. I ask you to please not criticize me and if u do, to do so in an appropriate manner. Please just offer some advice on what I just do :) I very much areciate it