So I'm only twelve. And i just started seventh grade this year. I used to not care about how I looked. Never did my hair never cared about fashion trends. No makeup. Everything was about sports, friends, school, and occasionally boys...but now I've changed. I've become more girly. I'm up to date with fashion trends. Im still not into make up all that much but I do wear mascara regularly. And I have my first boyfriend.
This is all good. Except one thing. Im extremely self conscious. In the beginning of the school year, I was 4 ft 10 inches and weighed 114. Then,during tennis, I screwed up my knee and I had to stay off it for a month. In that month, I gained so much weight and got up to 123 pounds. I didn't realize for a while. Then I checked my weight and I literally started to cry. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw that it was showing that I was gaining weight. So I became kind of depressed about it. I was checking my weight all the time anout 20 times a day and crying if it went up.My dad, being a psychiatrist, talked to me about it. We decided that i had to be healthier. So I started my sports again since my knee was better and I began exercising regularly. By January, I was about to get down to about 112 pounds. I did this by exercising more and keeping my diet to 1200 calories a day. It felt good. But I started to slack off and went to about 116 pounds then I lost again to 113. Now, I am 4ft 11 inches and I weigh about 117-120 pounds. I'm very short compared to all my friends and I'm so fat. My friends tell me I'm not, but I think, you can't really tell with clothes on...but the thing is, summer is coming, and I really want to get down to 100 pounds. My dad tells me it's fine that I'm trying to lose weight, but my friends say I'm becoming too obsessive about...but I'm not as obsessed anymore. But I still want to look good in a bikini ;) lol so I need some advice- I want to lose at least eight pounds in a month and a half. Do you think that's too quick? But I really don't want to get too obsessive over it again.
Oh and for a girl, I have a lot of muscle, I am very involved with sports and I'm steonger than most other girlsespecially in my legs. But I still have a lot of fat around my stomach area and arms and face.