I am jealous of you and yet i adore you
That i am jealous of you, which isn't surprising, given that you managed to clinch the holy grail of any students. i want to get to harvard, too, but chances seem to be slim
but at the same time, i cannot imagine life without you. not seeing you every week is just strange. It's like i have totally given up on 1/7 of my life thereafter.
maybe the solution is for me to excel, to somewhere your level, so that i can leave you with ease and relief, knowing that i have achieved some form of equality in our relationship.
i don't know...i don't love you,but i definitely am grateful to you.