I'm a woman who made the mistake of letting a girlfriend massage me
I am a 26 year-old woman who made the mistake of letting a girlfriend massage me after we'd had some drinks. Before I knew it she had my clothes off and went down on me. I admit I loved it, but I didn't want to repeat it. I have a boyfriend I hope to marry someday, and he'd be angry at me for cheating on him.
Now when I see that girlfriend she hounds me to let her massage me until I give in and she does whatever she wants with me. She knocked on my apartment door at 2AM last night and told me she was spending the night. I said no. She said yes and started touching me all over until I gave in and let her into my bed.
Now I'm scared my boyfriend is going to find out and break up with me. I try to tell my girlfriend I don't want her being intimate with me anymore, but she just says you love it and starts in again, and I, like a pushover, let her take advantage of me over and over. I'm trapped because I'm too h**** and too easily aroused. I wish I never let my girlfriend massage me, and I never expected she'd try to seduce me during the massage.
My boyfriend will be so mad and disappointed in me if he finds out.