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Hurting
I self harm and I have since I was 11.
It doesn't hurt anymore because I have became numb to the pain. I am 13 years old. The triggers are always tiny, petty things like the guy I like doesn't like me back? or that I have just had a ** day? or maybe I have a bad stomach and I am listening to depressing music. That combination is the worst. I am always scared I will burst a vein but its too addictive. I am not like the usual self-harmer. My parents aren't divorced? I have a pretty normal life but I suppose I just let things get to me?
oh well, i'll probably stop soon.
Thats the same age I started cutting. It is an addiction no different from heroin; the more you cut the more you NEED to cut. I haven't cut since my heart got stepped on last year; I get urges to cut several times every single day, but because I have been able to not give into the urges, they are not as strong anymore. Nowadays they are more like thoughts that cross into my mind instead of the full blown addiction urges.