I regret telling my mom that i hurt myself because, now, she thinks i it as an excuse to get out of chores and to make her feel sorry for me. She's mad because she believes that the fact that I self injure myself is not her fault, when in fact it is because she always ridicules me about how I haven't graduated high school and how I'm lazy and don't do anything. She then threatens me and tells me to go away so she can go behind my back and tell my sister that I self injure so that she can ridicule me too. I secretly can't stand my mother for doing this to me and I always wish I could just leave and never see her again...but then i get scared that something bad might happen and then I take it back immediately...

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  • I understand....I cut my self for nine years. Mostly because of my mother and her rules and because she made me feel like a worthless s****-up. Thankfully I have been cut free for a year, but anytime I feel upset I want to go straight for the razor. It's hard. And people think we are just crazy..that we just can't deal with anything.

    But hang in there. Try to get a job and save to be on your own. Then you can be free of the nagging. You don't have to feel bad about leaving. Trust me, mothers are easier to deal with when you don't live with them. Maybe someday she will understand.

    And I know it is hard, but try to stop. It is ok if you can't. But there is nothing that can erase the scars, both mentally and physically that you get from cutting. Try angry doodles, screaming into a pillow, or even just crying...I know these things don't compare to the high of cutting...but you wont regret them later like I did with the knife.

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