I believe I'm never going to find love
I feel like I'm going to die alone. I'm not that social really since having to constantly move and being constantly bullied as a child, so it's an issue to just put myself out there. I'm a hopeless romantic with trust issues since I was, in all of my relationships, cheated on. I am bipolar with manic depression, and over the years I've given up on a lot. I haven't had a relationship for a year and a half to two years and s** is about the same length. I don't want to have s** until I'm in a stable relationship...which may be never. I just have no confidence at all and I'm not attracted to anyone except for one person...but he is gone now and I can only go off on memory. My situation isn't helping me...I'm currently moving house to house looking for work but nobody is hiring. I am also dealing with legal issues and enrolling for college though I have no money to get me through it all. I've been dealing with an avalanche of new problems which are taking a toll and I feel lonelier than ever because off all of it. I see all of my friends have someone special they can go to and feel loved. I envy them all when I should be happy for them. I think I deserve someone after all of the things I've been through. It was only december when I was at my lowest point in my life so far. It took two years of being at the bottom to realize I needed a change. I do believe I should at least be rewarded...I want to feel loved, I want to love in return, is that so bad to ask?