Happily engaged... until
I am a happily engaged man. I met the love of my life five years ago, and we're going to get married next year. It's a fantastic relationship, and I love being in it. Oh yeah, but I'm also a bisexual.
Yeah, I find the odd guy vaguely attractive, but have always been far more attracted to women. Anyway, last week, I went on a cycling holiday with my dad, my three cousins, my brother-in-law and one of my Dad's employees, Mark.
Mark is 31 (year older than me), in a stable, long term gay relationship with his partner, incredibly masculine, and unfortunately for me, unbelievably sexy!
As the ride wore on over the six days, I found myself becoming more and more besotted with him. Let me tell you that this has not happened to me since I was 13, some 17 years ago!
Anyhow, one evening, I got very drunk and confessed to him that I was a bisexual. He was so nice about it and made me feel really normal. Unfortunately, I then propositioned him, but thankfully he said no, because he clearly had more integrity (And less booze!) than me.
The next day was a bit weird, then when I had to say goodbye to him the next day, it suddenly thunderstruck m that I had a whole lot of feelings for him. This last two days have been total torment. I live nearly 150 miles away from him, and I can't bear it :o(
I want to stay with my fiancee, but I'm just not sure if I csn anymore.