I think there's something wrong with
I think there's something wrong with me. Not actually, but I don't know. I wish life was just so simple - like in the movies where it would all be happy in the end. I am 16 and i've never been kissed. I want somebody to be with. Too much of my life is spent being lonely. I don't know what it is though, because when i'm around people I can be great but then sometimes I just shutdown and I don't even know how or why. I just wish someone would come in and make all of my insecurities go away - I wish someone that I liked would like me back and say it. I feel so alone; like nobody gets me. I know something is off with my life but I don't know how to change it. I really want to be in love. I know that is surprising for a 16 year old, but its true. I want to feel things. My life is too bland; school work consumes my life but I don't feel like i'm learning that much. I want to go to a place where everybody wants to learn things and they are like me and want the same things. I don't know, I just feel like my life is passing me by and everybody else sort of goes with the flow. It looks like I go with the flow on the outside, but on the inside I just want to feel everything that the world has to offer. In that way I want to feel anything, whether its sad or happy. Its weird - last year I told myself the same thing, and then I actually I think that I became a little depressed for a while (not actually but it felt like that). It sucked because I was sad but in a way it feels good to cry. You feel something actually. All of my feelings are bland. I want something.