I like when my man hits me..
Almost all the men I've been with have been physically abusive. It started when I was 13. And now, I can't date a "nice guy". I don't know what to do anymore. I believe if I make my man mad, he should hit me. It ties into the whole dominance/submissive man/woman role thing. If he's not abusive, it wont work...its not really sexual either. It's not like I get a sexual thrill. I just, need it. I wish I could be normal and say "a real man doesn't hit his girl" but i believe the opposite.
Wish I knew what to do.
It's hard to be like "Oh yea, I'm looking for a man that hits his girl".
It's honestly the only time I'm happy. As long as I can make him happy and stick by his side..that's all I want.
There's so many nice men out there that I could probably click with...but that factor is like..everything.. Ugh..