I hate it but I love it.

I'm not sure what to categorize this under...s**, relationship, love, idk..
Anyways, lets get to it cuz i have to tell someone.
I'm 16. I'm a female. I have big plans for my future. College, multiple degrees...I'm a smart kid. I'm musically talented, but still am always improving. I don't drink or do any sort of drugs. Overall, I'm pretty okay.
But, there's one thing...
My choice in guys is f***** up, to say the least.
I like older guys. Which isn't really a bad thing. However...they have to be...Abusive. Drug addicts. I don't mean pill poppers and smokers. I mean meth heads and heroin addicts.
I love it. Meth heads are incredibly hot to me. It's a turn on when a guy shoots up and gets that initial rush.
If a guy is not a) physically abusive or b) a f***** up drug addict, I'm not happy.
It's messed up. And I wasn't abused as a child or anything.
So, there you have it. There's my confession.
I absolutely hate it. But nothing is hotter than a man with track marks in his arms.



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  • Actually I sort of understand this. I'm 33, been a heroin user for 13 years. College grad, good job, and in control of my addiction. No worse than drinking or smoking to me. You just have to be cool about it. Stay away from meth heads though...most are crazy and dangerous, if not insane. If you are gonna hang with drug addicts...at least stick with the ones that do good drugs. Good luck.

  • Thanks. Your input means a lot.
    But i get what you're saying.
    I was in a store today and the guy helping me out looked...well, a bit different. He might have been in his early to mid 30's..I immediately found him attractive though. When he reached for something on the top shelf my eyes drifted to his arms and sure enough there were track marks.
    This is actually what lead me to this site.
    He was pleasant, obviously could hold a job, he had a ring on...seemed to be in control.

  • Ask Jesus Christ why you are attracted to that kind of spirit. Then ask His forgiveness, and ask Him to set your heart aright.

  • Listen,Mate who ever U are Jesus Christ wont help you or anyone else as there is NO SUCH PERSON u BIG little sucker, w*****, so go get a GRIP

  • Too bad I'm an Atheist.

  • YEA yea, ME TO AN Atheist...love it there's nothing like being an ATHEIST......Great Stuff OP

  • Yeah...I'm sure the ghost of a long dead jewish man will answer.

  • The point is that you are not sure. More about arrogant surmisal on your part.

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