I hate it but I love it.
I'm not sure what to categorize this under...s**, relationship, love, idk..
Anyways, lets get to it cuz i have to tell someone.
I'm 16. I'm a female. I have big plans for my future. College, multiple degrees...I'm a smart kid. I'm musically talented, but still am always improving. I don't drink or do any sort of drugs. Overall, I'm pretty okay.
But, there's one thing...
My choice in guys is f***** up, to say the least.
I like older guys. Which isn't really a bad thing. However...they have to be...Abusive. Drug addicts. I don't mean pill poppers and smokers. I mean meth heads and heroin addicts.
I love it. Meth heads are incredibly hot to me. It's a turn on when a guy shoots up and gets that initial rush.
If a guy is not a) physically abusive or b) a f***** up drug addict, I'm not happy.
It's messed up. And I wasn't abused as a child or anything.
So, there you have it. There's my confession.
I absolutely hate it. But nothing is hotter than a man with track marks in his arms.