Hiding true feelings for friendship

I really like this girl i work with. We've been hanging out a lot of the past 3 months and we talk almost everyday. Slowly and slowly my feelings grew for her everyday until she consumes most of my thoughts. I had people rooting for me and people telling me to just give up. I finally got up the courage to ask her out and she said yes! But only on a date because she wasn't sure if she wanted a relationship, which was good enough for me. I spent two weeks planning out the date so it would be better then just dinner and a movie. I bought new clothes got my car washed and planned everything out. On the day of the planned date one thing led to another and being a gentleman i offered to reschedule the date because she wasn't feeling that great. A few hours after that she texts me telling me that she has something to tell me but doesn't want to hurt my feelings. She then proceeds to tell me how she met this guy who is "something else" and is sorry and still wants to be "bff's" with me. We have a nice talk and I agree that I still want to be friends and make it very clear that i still like her but want her to be happy so I'm going to be respectful of the two of them. It's been 4 days now since all of this has happened and I have been handling pretty well but what i cant take is all the stuff she says about him in front of me. How nice he is, how sweet he is, all the smiling and giggling. how he asked her out... I hide my pain well but it still really hurts a lot. and i don't know if shes doing it on purpose or if she doesn't understand it hurts me. But its hurts a lot and whenever I'm alone I punch walls and other hard things just to let my anger out. Because I stay silent and hide my feelings because i do care for her and I at least want her as a friend as opposed to not in my life at all....

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  • you should try to move on and the only way to do so is by slowly detaching yourself...its for the best. like that you can probably be friends with her when you have healed :)
    best wishes!

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