One slip up
I am 34 years old, I have been married for 10 years and have two kids, age 2 and a newborn. I love my wife but we have not had s** since about a month before the new baby (4 months now!). It has been so difficult. I understand that with the breast feeding and sleepless nights she is not up to it but it has been very h****** our relationship. I had been talking to a coworker about my situation for a little while...i know the dangers of venting about your wife to another woman, especially if she is beautiful and in her 20s, but I needed to talk to someone and to be honest, it felt good. She was such a good listener and even though I was very attracted to this girl, I figured it was one way (she's so hot I thought there was no way she'd be into me) and safe. We were out for drinks with clients late last week and we both had a bit too much to drink. She offered to split a cab with me and when we got to her place she kissed me. We went upstairs and had the best s** of my entire life. She let me c** inside her and it felt amazing (my wife only let's me do that when we are trying). After she told me that if my wife would not sleep with me and I had no outlet sexually it would destroy my marriage. She told me that she would be my sexual outlet if I wanted it. I have no idea what to do. I can't imagine going the rest of my life without ever experiencing that again, but I feel so guilty. I know that if I remain as sexually frustrated as I am with my wife now our marriage may not last, so in a way continuing the affair could save my marriage. Is this totally crazy logic?? I can't stop thinking about this woman!!