AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel so stressed right now. so entombed in my mind. i cant stand THIS
i don't know whether I'm gay or not.
i'm crushing on a girl and i told her but she doesnt like me back. OK. I UNDERRSTAND that. its not her fault she loves someone else. but now she just gives me snotty looks and ignores me. i look at her and she turns around and stares at me before turing to her friends and giving them a little giggle. I JUST CANT HANDLE IT.

i miss her so much and i'm not even sure what i miss, its not like we were ever together. but i miss what i used to think and feel about her. i had dreams, i had hopes, i used to think maybe she liked me back. but now all i can do is picture her beautiful face mocking me
I CANT STAND THIS UGGGGGGG WHY DO I ..... HER
IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. I CANT DO THIS.
one last time i will allow myself to just say it

i love you