What do I do?
I'm 21 and I have a boyfriend and we have been together for a year and a half now. He is a great guy and I really do love him but there is a lot of stuff that bothers me. He is 26 and doesn't have his s*** together at all and he lives with me at my aunts house and has a s***** part time job. He has tons of debt and plays video games for hours instead of spending time with me. There are good things though as well, he helps me out a lot by taking my mom to work if I can't, he rubs my back most nights to help me fall asleep(granted it takes me like 5 mins to fall asleep) but he is sweet and generous just not at the level I would like him to be. So I have been pretty distant lately and going out with my friends a lot. About a month ago I had a one night stand, I was drunk he was hot and from out of town we went back to his hotel room one thing lead to another and we never spoke again. Then the other night I went out with my bff and we met up with this guy she liked and I invited an old friend from college to come out and of course we had always kind of liked each other but the opportunity just never arose. Well it did that night we slept together and cuddled and the next day I left. My problem is I don't know if I should tell my boyfriend. I don't care about these guys and I know the reason I did it is because 1 i was drinking and 2 i was feeling underappreciated at home. My boyfriend and I havent slept together in 2 months, not that I don't want to it just doesn't happen. I know most people are going to say you s*** and w**** and you should tell him because it's not fair to him, but if I do tell him it will only hurt him a lot and I can't bear to see him hurt. It breaks my heart just thinking about it. I know I shouldn't have done what I did, but I am only human and humans are animals too with animalistic instincts. I feel like he would be happier not knowing. I know I would be and I only say that because if someone loved me and I mean truely loved me and had a drunken night of l*** that meant nothing then I would not want to know. It woukd ruin my world to find that out. I just want a little insight please don't be to harsh.