Im so mad and i dont know why. . . i dont know why but when i see this guy i get so mad. his presence just p*** me off, i dont know why. today i totally told him off (im a freshmen and he is a sophomore) and it seems like i hurt him, or he just got really annoyed .___. but i feel so horrible, i didnt have a reason to yell at him. Im so stupid, im short tempered and im such a douche. i have no respect and have too much pride.
well this guy starts to tell his friends about how i "yelled" at him, and they seem 'cool' i guess, but i feel like they all hate me or somethin, wich i totally get. they dont have a reason not to. what i did was unneeded and was totally unacceptable. so i really dont care. i deserve people hating me. I want to say sorry but i dont know how. this guy is also cocky, and prideful (like me) so hes probably just gonna be a douche about it. but i still feel like i should say sorry, i dont care how he reacts...i just want to say sorry. i know what i did wrong, and i want to make things right. if he doesnt want to accept it then i totally understand. if i was him i would probably do the same thing.
for some reason i couldnt even tell this to my best friend .____. so i decided to say it here... im probably gonna come here more often.