I want my Best Friends Brother...
Hello all fellow confessionists. I will call myself RockaKittyn. Before I tell you what is going on I want to tell you a little about who I am as a person. The basic: 25,5'5, very fair to pale skinned, and thick and curvy.about my personality: what makes me shine is my goofy side and my ability to speak the truth. I'm very blunt and never shy. I care about the ones who are in my life. I don't hang out with too many ppl simply because I am a private person and I don't care for what others have going on. Basically I don't care for drama. I am also a singl. mother of 2 .
Okay,so her it goes... I just only moved to this town going on 6 yrs and I've know my best friend for 5 of them. He and and I quickly becmae joined at the hip. I was constantly over at his house which he shared with his brother now ex-girlfriend. I remember when I first saw him.., all I could think was, "oh, my god"!
I was completely floored. Its not that he's drop dead gorgeous but he's a man. 29, lean and muscular, unattached, no kids, a place and truck of his own and hard working with rough hands. He reeked of testosterone. Okay, so my issue is that I want him. In every which way. Physically, spiritually, to bond...
I've been building the sexual tension between him and I for the past couple of months. He knows I want him, at least sexually. We'll flirt back and forth and glance at eachother. I'm a grown woman and it frazzles me that I can't seem to make the first move. Its my fear that he'll reject me or after we do it'll be awkward. I'm just not sure how to approach this matter. If he were any other guy but mostly and the main reason being that he is my best friends older brother. What to do? I'm not like the average american or person. I think out of the box and free spirited and I react on impulse because its liberating but I do have morals. I know that me not being able to express myself has allot to do with it. Only time will tell confessionists.
Thank you for reading my situation.