I have dark fantasies about being tied up and made love to by men. Sometimes more than one man. I love bondage p***. I remember when I was just beginning to become aware of my body, I would have these daydreams about being kidnapped and tied up by a man. I didn't understand them until years later. There has always been a thrill for me when I don't know if a man cares about me or has only ill intentions. I want someone to be deeply and darkly obsessed with me, the way my first love was. He was only entertaining himself at first but then he couldn't get enough. I've never gotten over the fact that he stopped being obsessed with me, and so I no longer have any control over him. I am so kind and genuine all of the time, but these sociopathic cravings have been bubbling under the surface recently. I want control. I want power. I want to win.