I'm a killer
When I was 14 I watched my mom die, it took a long time. And I was told that I was the cause of her death (see committed suicide) Most of the time I was at the library. I've never gotten over it. Two days ago I actually cried about it (and my life) for the first time in over a year.
Today I killed my pet. And now I'm scared. I never thought I would escalate to this point, I even feared animal abuse. I'm not going to go into details, but I need help. The only problem is I won't get any. I exhibit schizophrenic tendencies and the voices won't ever leave me alone.
The best part is I'm excellent at putting on a mask to hide my true nature...