Rare and Unfair

I don't often feel sexually attracted to people. There have been times when I've wondered if I'm asexual because the idea of ** was just so bleh and boring to me. But then there's my roommate.

I have never, EVER wanted someone so badly in a sexual way as I want her. She's beautiful and powerful and soft and smooth. Her voice is dark and sensual. She's refined and crass all at once. She's the one I think about when I play with myself. I wanna lick her little pink **, massage her perky little **, run my hands all over her skin. And that **. THAT ** PERFECT **. Every time she mentions her own ** life, it's like a lightning bolt to my **.

But she's straight. I've already told her how I feel and she's just not interested in girls. It's so unfair. I finally feel ** for someone and I can't have her. And I have to see her every day.