Asexuality and guilt
One of my best friends told me she's in love with me. I told her the truth - I care deeply about her and she deserved it, even though I'd never confessed it to anyone: I've always been very confused about my sexuality, or lack thereof, and I've recently admitted to myself that I may be an aromantic asexual. I don't know if this is who I am or if it's just of phase, I don't even know how it could be possible to be like that. It's not only that I don't feel sexual attraction whatsoever, but I don't have interest in a platonic relationship.
I feel very bad about it because on one hand I enjoy spending time with her but I know I'm hurting her constantly, on the other hand I'm tired of being so confused about myself. I'm a 20 years old girl and I feel sick, I can't help but think there must be something wrong with me and I don't know how to fix it. I'm just tired of not even understanding myself.