I no longer love my wife
I once did love you. You were the light that I looked forward to. We are now so distant I dream of being able to leave you to be free. I feel as if I have a 500 pound weight in my heart. I know it won't end soon. I can't tell you this, as I can only imagine how you would react. You have attempted suicide twice, threatened divorce three times. Your PTSD from your past has infected me. I am no longer able to build relationships and trust people. I am so angry it is scary. Thanks for ruining my life too.