I feel sad that I can't have men friends.
I'm 19 and I think I look kinda pretty. Not in a kind of way I'm self centered or anything, I know there many other girls around me prettier and everything.
But, I kinda have that charisma or something that attracts men and all of them try to get me to be with them. Some of them say it directly and some of them try to be my friends. Well, I feel sad that I don't have any real friends because all of my guy friends are in fact in love with me, so, if I say to them that I don't like them, they will no longer be my friends. And I don't know what to do or how to act.
And I feel stupid and slutty just because they all like me. It's like I'm building an army of men who like me and if I choose one of them, the others will be gone and I don't want them to be gone.
I don't know, maybe I am self centered and arrogant and everything that goes with it. I want to have them as friends, but I don't want them to be in love with me.
This is all so stupid, I don't know if you understand me, it's just easier when I said it like this.