My Father Beats Me
I'm fifteen though I've gone by a lot of ages over the internet. I'm almost considered a f****** genius, though I'm sure that won't show right now. I can barely type because my left arm just got f****** demolished by my s******* of a father. He doesn't beat me often, but when he does, he pulls out all of the f****** stops. He cheated on my mother, divorced her, and then f****** lived in our g****** basement. This stupid m*********** once punched me in the throat, then the gut so hard I vomited. Another time, he threatened to throw me over a balcony, repeatedly screaming, "You think you're a f****** man? Prove it! Hit me!" He punched me repeatedly then, threw me into a wall so hard that I broke halfway through it. I had to sleep at a friend of the family's house that night. This time though, he pinned me against the wall and started choking me. I told him I was better than him, that I didn't have to hurt him to get my point across. Then he stopped. He pushed me so hard into the bedpost I broke it. Then he pinned me down and held my back against the nails of the bed. As I went down, he punched my arm so hard it flew into the broken wood, cutting it deeply and bruising me all the way up the arm. I'm in martial arts. I should be able to take him. But whenever he tries to hurt me, I freeze. He keeps apologizing to me. If he ever lays a hand on my younger brother (age 11) I will kill him. I will. I wish I was dead myself, but that will have to wait, if only to protect my mother and brother.